Friday, March 20, 2009

Please say a little prayer...

If you could say a little prayer for me, I would greatly appreciate it. It seems the sickness is REALLY starting to kick in now and is getting worse and worse each day. Today I have been vomiting continuously . Every time I put something in my mouth, it comes right back up. My stomach and chest hurts from vomiting when there is really nothing to vomit. I am so weak and so tired I just want to lay in bed all the time. I don't have a doctor's appointment for another 2 weeks. I really don't want to go to the ER but if I keep going at this rate I will have to. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers!

Monday, March 16, 2009

The innocence of a child

I just wanted to share some things my girls have said lately...

*The other night Kelsey went out with my Mom to feed the dogs. It was pretty dark outside and Kelsey asked my Mom if she could go sit in my Daddy's swing. Everyday (before he got sick), when he came home from work, he would go sit in his swing, play with the dogs, and swing for hours. Now his swing sits empty. Anyway, Mom let her go down there. She sat in the swing, and prayed, "I sure hope my Papa is having a good time playing with God"

*We went to Blue Bay to eat last week and they always want to throw money in the wishing well thing they have. Kelsey looked at me and said, I wished my Papa was still real.

*Kaley came home from school last week and said, "Mommy, I am so mad at both of my teachers." I asked her "why?" She said, "they didn't let my sissy have an ice cream at lunch today because she didn't eat her food." She said, "they let me have one and I cried because she didn't get one. I shouldn't have gotten one either." She was so upset.

*When it snowed, the girls of course wanted to build a snowman. Kaley wanted to put her Papa's Byrnes Rebels hat on the snowman. When she put it on him, she said, "I bet my Papa is saying, Look at those silly girls using my hat for that snowman." and then she giggled.

The girls have been really worried about me because I have been throwing up. I tried to explain to them that I was ok and that a lot of women with babies in their bellies throw up. They told Mom yesterday, "My Mommy is really sick" I think they associate it with my Dad. He threw up all the time, and I think they associate it with his illness:(

Thursday, March 12, 2009

The pregnancy thing has kicked in

I thought I was going to be lucky this time around and not have the "morning" sickness. Well the past week, more so the past few days, it has decided to make it's appearance. I am by no means complaining (maybe whining a little), because so far is is NOTHING compared to last time. When I was pregnant with the twins, I was CONSTANTLY throwing up the ENTIRE time I was pregnant. So far, I have really bad nausea and a little vomiting from morning until about 1 or so. Then I start feeling some better. Then late in the evening the nausea comes back. I am thankful so far that this is all I have to deal with. Hopefully this means it's just 1 baby and I pray the constant throwing up doesn't decide to show up. I've been coming home in the mornings after taking the girls to school and going back to bed for 4 hours. I am still so tired I can hardly move. And then of course, there is the emotions! I do have a lot to be emotional about right now, but yesterday I was an EMOTIONAL WRECK!! The thought that I can't pick up the phone and call Shane anytime I want or text him just to say I LOVE YOU, and our everynight conversations. The thought that he will never see me pregnant, well hopefully he'll get to make it for delivery, never feel the baby move, not go to doctors appointments with me, and then of course there is the girls. These of course are only the least of my fears. I have been through this before when he was in Iraq. OF course, I wasn't pregnant, but this time seems so much harder. Shane has me so worried. The past couple of weeks he has not been himself. He has been calling everyone (people he normally doesn't call), doing weird stuff, taking out an additional life insurance policy, and all types of things. He makes comments like, "I need to talk to the girls one last time, etc" I'm not sure if they told him they are going to a bad area, or what the deal is. He seems so much more concerned this time around than the first. Maybe it's because he has been there and done that. I have no idea when I will hear from Shane, but everyone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for him, his fellow soldiers, and their families.

The girls are so excited about being a big sister. I wasn't going to tell them until after the first trimester just in case something happens, but I figured if I didn't someone would. They said, "Mom, you have to go buy us all matching outfits and I was it's name to start with a K like ours." They are hoping for a baby brother. If it is a boy I am going to some way use my Dad's name in the baby's middle name. Ok, I am off to bed now. I can't remember the last time I went to bed this early. I'm about to fall over.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

What my 6 year old twins think of me!

This was SO CUTE and so fun to do with the girls

1. What is something mom always says to you?
KELSEY: You always talk about daddy
KALEY: You always say you miss Papa and love us very very much!

2. What makes mom happy?
KELSEY: You're getting a baby
KALEY: That we are with you and that we play with you

3. What makes mom sad?
KELSEY: That Papa died and Daddy is in the Army
KALEY: Papa died and that Papa Nelson has cancer

4. How does your mom make you laugh?
KELSEY: You play with me and tickle me
KALEY: You tickle me

5. What was your mom like as a child?
KELSEY: You were very very very very cute! You were the cutest girl I ever saw!
KALEY: You were very very nice and you didn't have much clothes.

6. How old is your mom?
KALEY: I give a guess of 85

7. How tall is your mom?
KELSEY: Maybe 20 inches tall...I don't know
KALEY: "I'll give a guess of...hmmm...stand up...26 and 80lbs"

8. What is her favorite thing to do?
KELSEY: spend time with Daddy and the whole family
KALEY: go swimming

9. What does your mom do when you're not around?
KELSEY: go to Walmart and the Mall
KALEY: go to the mall

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
KELSEY: Sometimes you're good at making snowmen and playing soccer with us
KALEY: "But you are pregnant"

11. What is your mom really good at?
KELSEY: You're good on your computer
KALEY: swimming

12. What is your mom not very good at?
KELSEY: "Hmmm...hehe...that's a funny question. You're good at almost "everythang."
KALEY: Shooting the ball in the basketball court

13. What does your mom do for a job?
KELSEY: You don't even have a job
KALEY: "da da da da...hehehe"

14. What is your mom's favorite food?
KELSEY: Pizza for real food and ice cream sandwiches for dessert
KALEY: Salmon Stew

15. What makes you proud of your mom?
KELSEY: "I'm proud of you because every single time I tell you something it makes you happy and you smile"
KALEY: "You are a very very good Mommy and I love you very very much! I thank that was a sweet thing to say wasn't it?"

16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
KELSEY: "Hmmm...I would say Hannah Montana even though you don't like to sing"
KALEY: "Hannah Montana pop star"

17. What do you and your mom do together?
KELSEY: "You take us to the park, play ball, and take us to Monkey Joe's and one time you took us to Jump Zone"

KALEY: Go to the mall together

18. How are you and your mom the same?
KELSEY: "A bunch of people say our faces look a like"

KALEY: "Well, we each have brown eyes, blue jeans, black shoes, and the same color hair"

19. How are you and your mom different?
KELSEY: "You're bigger and I'm smaller"
KALEY: Your head is bigger than mine

20. How do you know your mom loves you?
KELSEY: "You always love me since I was 12 years old or maybe 0 years old. You think I'm the bestest kid ever.

KALEY: We're very very very good kids

21. What does your mom like most about your dad?
KELSEY: "You always love him and miss him and you're sad cause sometimes he gets hurt and you really really really love him and miss him."

KALEY: "Well, all I "thank" is ya'll like to go on trips together."

22. Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
KELSEY: "That would be a hard one because you almost like to go anywhere but I would say probably the mall."
KALEY: Well, I don't know that one. I "thank" you like to go skating.

Mixed Emotions

Thanks to everyone for your congrats, thoughts, and your prayers! I am asking for your prayers during this pregnancy. This pregnancy was not in our plans right now, but obviously it is in God's. I am having so many mixed emotions right now. I am excited, but yet very afraid, nervous, worried, and just have SO MANY thoughts going through my mind. Shane and I were thinking of having another child, but after he got out of the Army. Shane is deploying VERY VERY soon ( I can not list dates here), and will not be here during the pregnancy. He will be deployed for 12 months. I am very concerned due to the complications I had during my first pregnancy with the twins and also their premature delivery. I am afraid of Shane getting injured or killed in Afghanistan. . I can not even begin to list all of my cares and concerns. I have not been to the doctor yet, but from my calculations (via internet calculator) the baby would be due on Nov. 1 which will be one year since my Daddy's passing. Please keep my family and I in your thoughts and prayers!!!

We have growing families on both sides.
My grandparents are going to have 5 new great-grandchildren this year
Chad (my bro) & Samantha in April, Christy in April, April in Aug, Heather in Oct, and me. That will total 15, that is if I just have one.

Shane's cousin is expecting very soon so that will total 6 cousins in that family:)